Tonight, I am having trouble sleeping and am haunted by my constant mistakes and mess-ups. I begin to wonder and question myself of what is going on? Life has been amazing and God has been the most real He has ever been to me. I just don’t know what I am thinking or how to explain it. If you are reading this, you are giving this attention and could be attracted to what is on my mind.
Why is it that whenever you have these “highs” with God and being lifted up to these positions that people look up to you in a Spiritual Leader role, that is when it is the toughest? I believe that Satan is trying to discourage me from shining God’s light.
Though I find myself dry and lost,
I view myself as a lost cause,
However, I know that it is darkness haunting me,
The deceiver of truth and the king of falsity,
I know that God is near,
Through this time, He is here.
I know that trusting Him has lead me to where I am,
He works all things for the good of me and who I am,
He sees who I can be,
He sees where I can go,
He knows everything about me,
He is here when I am lost and alone,
He knows my ups and my downs,
He has seen my smiles and my frowns,
He knows my downfalls and my abilities,
He has conquered death, which is the highest feat,
I am reminded of this and it is Him that I seek,
Lord, take over my life and use me for your glory,
I want to be reach others with my story,
Lead me in your path and set my feet straight,
For I know that my life has great fate,
I know that God is near,
Through this time, He is here.
Find me.
For those who are like me and sometimes finding yourself in discouragement on random nights, simply begin to write out your thoughts and how you are confused. I do believe that through this experience, God will find you and lead you back to His grace and His path. I know that He is near and that He cares for those who seek Him out. Seek Him out and He will find you.
God is good.
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ReplyDeleteDear Person Above Me,
ReplyDeleteJohn 8:7 says, “When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” I don’t believe any of us have the right to judge another human being’s actions, no matter how hurtful they may be. God calls us to love and forgive one another. Matthew 18:21-22 says “Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times? Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.” That is one of the hardest things to do in life, but the only person you can hurt by your hurtful words is yourself. When you wallow in the bitterness that someone’s actions have created, you change your own heart. The only thing that anybody, including Josh, has taken from you is something you were willing to give. That’s the way life works. Eleanor Roosevelt said that “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” In the same way, if your sanity is taken from you because of an experience with a guy, then maybe there were some cracks in it that were not caused by the same guy. Jeremiah 17:9 says, “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can know it?” The only person who knows the true desire of our hearts is God, and he’s the only one who can judge us for our actions, whether they be against others or worse, against God. Worse, the only reason your post is on this deep thought-provoking blog entry is to embarrass him and try to hurt him the way he hurt you. Is that really the way our lives are supposed to work? Deuteronomy 32: 35 says, “It is mine to avenge; I will repay. In due time their foot will slip; their day of disaster is near and their doom rushes upon them.”
Sincerely,
Someone Else
You are so loved and so chosen by God to change the youth of the world Josh Riley.
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